When something is really good, you hope it will last forever, but it rarely does.

At least when it’s your fault, you can accept it, think that you’ll do better next time, and move on. But what do you do when it isn’t your fault? When you did every last thing you could think of to fix it? And none of it worked.

And then you start to worry that maybe it wasn’t as special or important to everyone else, and maybe it was your mistake to invest so much of your heart into it. So, do you pick up the pieces and keep going on by yourself or just drop it, knowing some things just aren’t meant to be?

It’s not really that the work hasn’t been done, but more the other stuff. The exchanges of love that have dwindled off really hurt the most, because without your family, what else is there?

And the worst part of it all is that maybe you really didn’t do enough, and if you’d just pushed harder, or sooner, maybe everything would still be alright.

There are many fingers you could point, many accusations you could voice, but why? When it comes down to it, it’s broken. And if you’re the only one left standing, maybe you’re the one that did the breaking in the first place. Some things aren’t meant to be. Well what about things that are meant to be but just don’t work anymore?

Umma will still be here, Umma will always be here, even if it’s alone.

I stole this from Jinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn <333

1. Eeteuk

2. Yesung

3. Eunhyuk

4. Hankyung

5. Ryeowook

6. Donghae

7. Kyuhyun

8. Kangin

9. Siwon

10. Sungmin

11. Heechul

12. Shindong

13. Kibum

14. Henry

15. Zhoumi


( That was hard. X_X )

I... really... want to adopt Inhwan.




And I also really want an Eeteuk muse. But... it isn't working. ><;; idek~~

Happy Birthday, Zaku

Umma needs to talk to you someday XD;; I promised Eeteuk.

Um, Hi Eeteuk-oppa. *waves*

I'm sorry I'm having to write this and not talk to you in person. Even though... it's probably better this way? I'm really sick, I don't want to give you my germs.

That's why I probably won't get to talk to you tonight... Time zones... sleep... very inconvenient. ^^;;;

Um... I just wanted to say... Welcome home? We all really missed you.

I... really missed you. *blushblushblush*

Umm... I made you chocolates on Valentine's Day but my muses ate them. DD:

I tried to help take care of your family while you were gone... I don't think I did a very good job. ^^;;

And... yeah. Just. I'm glad you're home. ^^

L3 is almost done... which means Eeteukie oppa should be coming back soon too. <3

I feel silly, I'm kind of nervous~

What if he doesn't even remember who I am XD;;;;;;;;;;;;

Happy Birthday, Jonggie oppa :33









I didn't forget~ Don't listen to Yunnie ^^;;;;;;;

Happy Valentines Day to all my babies <333

And of course, my sexy husband, Alex.

I hope everyone has a great day. ^^


And Eeteuk, wherever you are...

this is for you too.

Happy Valentine's Day.

I want to give you chocolates when you get back ;-; <3